Fine Lines

I’ve never been on a tightrope. I’ve always been intrigued by tightrope walkers, though. They steal your gaze as you sit in the crowded circus arenas and they make you gasp when they have even the slightest wobble in their walk. What if they fall? What if they make one slight misstep? Well, if that happens and they don’t have something safe underneath them to catch them, the consequences could be devastating. Serious injuries. Blood. Death.

I think that we, as humans, all understand and grasp the danger that is associated with tightrope walking. I do not think that anyone would voluntarily walk on a tightrope without harnesses attached and a soft landing underneath. But I do believe that sometimes we put ourselves on an invisible tight rope that we exhaust ourselves trying to cling on to and stay on top of. But this summer, I have learned that we don’t always have to cling to the tightrope..we are allowed to let go…because we have the safest place to fall…

{{a s e a o f g r a c e}}

You see, thanks to Jesus’ death on the cross there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ (Romans 8:1). We don’t have to put walking with God into the “tight rope walking paradigm.” Ever since I went to Northwest Africa, I have been stuck in this mindset that in order to have a thriving relationship with Jesus I have to walk this narrow line; I have to cling to Jesus so tightly that my knuckles turn white and when I get tired, I need to pull myself up by my bootstraps and in my weariness, “get over it.” The tightrope paradigm is all about what I am capable of doing…not who God is.

That isn’t how it works. Walking a tightrope isn’t God’s heart for me! In my time with God over the last month or so, God has been giving me a picture of my letting go of a rope and plunging into the ocean–that’s the sea of grace I was talking about a few paragraphs up. Oh sweet grace. So in the process of letting go of performance, striving, and exhaustion in my walk with Jesus, I have learned to drink deeply of the rest and refreshment that is His grace. Oh the vast ocean that God, in his kindness, provides for me. So in drinking deeply of the grace that I have received, I am learning to enjoy the little things: jumping on trampolines, coffee at starbucks, sunflowers, songs I can jump around to, mashed potatoes.

It’s the little things in life that are refreshing me. It’s in the little things I love that God spoils me with. In my sin and my pain, in my  day to day life I am covered in Jesus’ grace.

It is in that grace that I am:
loved.
whole.
cherished.
healed.
righteous.
delighted in.

 

so today, I rest; breathing deeply, drinking deeply of sweet sweet grace.

 

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